SSMT Week 3!

Here is my Siesta Scripture  Memory Team verse I have chosen for week 3 - - -

"She is clothed with strength and dignity, and she laughs without fear of the future. When she speaks, her words are side, and she gives instructions with kindness"

Proverbs 31:25-26 NLT.

SO WHAAAAAT!!!

I don't have our cool logo because it is saved on my work computer :( which brings me to.....
So WHAT if I didn't go to work today?! I love a good snow day!

So what if I am tapping this out on my iPad and illegally using my phone as a wireless hot spot? Cut me off, Uscellular I dare ya!!!

So what if I just rocked Halle for a good 15 minutes before she went to bed? She was super grumpy and when I took her upstairs and rocked her she snuggled me. In the words of Taylor Swift... "Your little hands wrapped around my finer and its so quiet in the world tonight. Your little eyelids flutter cause your dreaming so I tuck you in and turn on your favorite night light. I'd give all I have honey if you could stay like that..."

So what if I really, really want to see Taylor Swift in concert at Wells Fargo in August?!

So what if I had a surprise guest show up last night and it hugely annoyed me :/ I swear this person has radar for when I take off my bra and sit down on the couch...

So what if I am addicted to trashy tv? The Bachelor, anyone?

So what if I am frustrated with my job? I can't seem to get where I want to go. I need a 4 year degree to go anywhere and the thought of taking on more student loans makes me sick to my stomach.

That's all for today!!! Until next week!

"I will wait, I will wait for you"

I walk into work today and the first thing waiting for me is an email from the human resources recruiter here at work saying that I haven't been chosen to even get a first interview for a job I applied for.
A job that would have basically been a lateral move for me - same pay, pretty much same scale of responsibilities. I applied because it would open more doors for me from where I am at. But apparently my "skills" don't match what they want. Interesting.

Icing on the cake, really. and I had a small, ugly cry at my desk before 7:30 this morning.

I should probably change my perspective about things, but I am feeling like life is kind of slapping us in the face lately. The list of 'things' keeps growing. Money is beyond tight and my patience are running thin.
I need to remember that I'm not in control of this life, God is. I'm trying to control everything and I really shouldn't. I'm ready to see the silver lining.

Today is going to be so busy at work...my phone is already ringing off the hook and there are 4 people gone. On a team of only 13, that's a big hit. It's Monday and the work is piling in. Time to pull it together.

Pipe down.....

I follow Kristen's blog at First Name Smith. She is funny! Always posting stuff that others would never say. She is also the person that I have ordered invitations from for Halle's birthday party and for a baby shower that i'm hosting!
I read her post this morning titled "Pipe The Fuck Down".

Let me preface this by saying that the Carson family is on the fence about having another child - but leaning toward having two.

Here is a direct quote from her blog entry:

"What I chose to do with my own uterus and my husbands nuts are none of anyone's business. And to be so narrow minded to assume that my child is going to "suffer" because he doesn't have a 24/7 playmate?  Or suggest that he's going to be a selfish little prick because he has our undivided attention? You think I don't know how to discipline? How about you come over at 2, 3, 4, 5 am for 2 1/2 years straight? And then pay for my daycare at $190 a week. And then work full time and have incredible mom guilt for not being the one to teach my son how to count to 20. And only have 3 hours a day during the work week to get in quality time. And then divide that in half for a second child and then in thirds for a 3rd child. "

 

That last part about mom guilt really struck me. So glad that other people get it too! Staying home isn't an option for me and having a second child isn't an option right now either. I have heard countless times "you will NEVER have enough money for two!!!!" Right. But there is also a fine line between not "having" enough money and not being able to make the mortgage payment. While I don't owe an explaination to anyone, let me just say that it's tough to run on $1.67 between paychecks (some weeks) now that the government is taking more money out for taxes each month.

 

Don't get me wrong, this isn't a pity party of one here this morning.......her blog simply struck a note with me and I wanted to share. I don't mind having the second child talk with my family and close friends, but when people that I'm not close with want to try and tell me how to run my family I get annoyed.

 

Stay tuned for SO WHAT WEDNESDAY!!!!!!!!!!

2013 Siesta Scripture Memory Verse:::WEEK 2!

Week 2! I am so glad that I decided to do Beth Moore's Memory Verse. I've already got more out of it than I ever could have imagined.

This week I picked a scripture out of the book of James. This is hands down my favorite book in the Bible. When I did a study on James last spring I repeatedly said that I felt like James was slapping me in the face day after day. While I was going through a rough time with some family, the James study really spoke to me.
Here is my verse for week 2:
"But don't just listen to God's word. You must do what it says. Otherwise, you are only fooling yourselves." James 1:22

I would probably give my left foot to be able to go to Dallas in January to go to the Siesta Scripture Memory Team Celebration. We'll see if that works out.

So What! ...because only the cool people post on Wednesday!

So what if I was slightly annoyed when we had some unexpected company last night. I'll leave the name blank so not to offend anyone. After dinner and bath time I said to Matt "Is ------ going to spontaneously stop over tonight?" His response "Um...no!?" So I proceed to take off my bra and plop on the couch to read a book to Halle. Not even 2 minutes later the doorbell rings.............

So what if I get insanely annoyed by my someone at work who talks about his calorie intake every.single.day to anyone who will listen. And who talks about how much more weight his wife can squat than him. I wouldn't admit that if I was a man.

Which brings me to my next topic.....

So what if I want to drop 30 pounds. Yes, 30. I don't even know what I weigh right now because I'm literally scared to death to step on the scale. Pretty sure I am in the upper 160's. I can't believe I am admitting that. While I am not about the tell the world about my new endeavor, I am going to post it here. I need *SOME* sort of accountability. I have absolutely no intention of telling the Facebook world about all of my workouts or posting pictures of what I'm eating. I find that really annoying. Ok, rant on that is over :)

So what if I got to work and thought "MAN, who's perfume is so flipping strong today!?!?" only to realize that it is myself. Whoopsie. It's almost making me nauseous.

SWW

So what if I forgot to eat dinner last night? I have no idea how that happened because mama loves her food! but when I went to bed my stomach growled. Then I realized that I never ate. Must have been my subconscience telling me that I could stand to miss a few meals after the holiday binge.

So what if while I'm typing this I am on hold with the Houston Police department. Only going on 13 minutes of hold time. #lovemyjob.

So what if I am crazy and decided to throw not only a shower, but a suprise one at that for my sister in law.

So what if my husband ralphed last night and I freaked the freak out? I don't have time to be calling in sick to work! He woke up fine this morning :)

So what if I'm too busy to finish this post?