Dear Halle

Life with you lately has been so much fun! I don't ever want to forget this time with you. A few nights ago you said "MOM" with as much clarity as I've ever heard you use! Granted, you were ticked that I was taking too long getting you some milk, but i'll take what I can get.
You think stupid puss Mya is so funny. You want nothing more than to lay on her and stroke her fur. Obviously this only lasts less than a minute as she isn't very patient with you. Don't take that personally.
You think you are SO funny! Clearly that comes from your mama. The other day you were digging in the drawer you know you aren't supposed to be in. You pulled out a pad of paper and when I came after you, you ran in the other direction giggling the whole way. I couldn't help but laugh.
Your favorite "game" is to have daddy or I chase you in the hallway. We have done this so much that now you just think it's funny when I am carrying you upstairs and daddy is just walking behind us.
You LOVE your wagon! We have been on a few walks in it and you can't take the grin off your face the whole time.
When I take you to daycare in the morning you jump out of my arms to Lacie. You have also been known to throw a fit when I pick you up because you don't want to leave. This warms my heart that you love where you spend your days :)

Love,

Mom

SWW

So what if I have an interview in less than 2 hours and am literally about to crap my pants due to this anxiety.

So what if I woke up feeling funny and have a borderline migraine. Must be the weather my sister said because she feels the same. I'm going to add to the list of things you shouldn't do with a migrane: #1 on my list is giving an interview. I'm guessing that #1 on my sister's list is trying to prepare Easter dinner.

So what if i'm debating about adding the insurance back to my cell phone plan because I dropped my phone last night and completely messed up the screen. This may be insurance fraud. This is what I get for trying to save myself $5.95 a month on my cell phone bill and dropping the insurance a few months ago.

So what if this is all i've got today. My mind is full of interview questions and thinking about how i'll answer them.......

sww

So what if Halle's dentist appointment was cancelled at last minute but I still left early yesterday? I had already made up my time off so....SO WHAT!

So what if I applied for a new job - same place - and have been stalking the hiring manager's calendar?! I want to know if/when he has interviews scheduled :)

So what if I sort of wish my cat would run away...she is starting to be really mean. Yes, more so than what is usual for her.

So what if I feel like I'm constantly being told (in one way or another) that I can't be a Christian because I 100% believe that gay people should be allowed to get married. It's really been weighing on my heart a lot lately. People have that you either believe the Bible or you don't and you can't call yourself a christian unless you believe it to be true. (I'm paraphrasing here). It hurts my feelings and I am starting to feel like a fake because I don't believe the popular majority of others who live for Jesus. I feel like I can't be part of the "club" of christians because I disagree whole heartedly with the popular opinion.

So what if that is maybe a little too deep for a SWW. But it was weighing on my heart. So what if that's the first time i've publicly declared my opinion on that issue.


signing off.

That stings.

I had an interesting conversation last night. Without going into major details I feel like I need to get my feelings out. Pretty certain that all of my blog "readers" will know who this is about.

Apparently I am a bad mom who can't handle my child. And my husband is the one who has to do everything because I just can't handle it. Therefore, I shouldn't be allowed to babysit, ever.
This little ditty here wasn't even meant for me to have heard, but It slipped out in coversation that someone said this about me.

Most things I can just let roll in one ear and out the other. This one cuts a little deep. I went to sleep thinking about it and woke up thinking about it. I am certain there is no truth to this. Seriously, who says something like this? Hurt people, that's who. My dear sister always says that hurt people, hurt people. So much truth to this.  This is reason #1 why I have set boundaries with this person - because this person constantly puts me in a state of anxiety and hurt feelings. I have made a conscience effort to be nice and put things in the past but it seems as though i'm still being bashed behind my back when I have done nothing wrong. I am certain I have done nothing to deserve this trash talk.

"Oh Father give me strength to forgive them, because I feel like the one losing!" - Best song in the world.

SWW

Today I'm saying SO WHAT!

So what if I want to throw my can of green beans at the TV when I hear Jillian say "We're not straining our neck, the neck is not invited to this party this is all abs!!!!"

So what if I use a can of green beans as my weights for the 30DS. I'm halfway through, only 15 more days!

So what if I think my child is funnier than most adults I know. She had me laughing so hard the other night I almost wet myself. I realize how silly that sounds, but she seems to have the same sense of humor as her mother :) we both think our jokes are funnier than they really are.....

So what if I think it's annoying to listen about fantasy baseball, football, basketball, bad mintton ect. teams at work all day long? Just kidding, it's only fantasy baseball these days. Still annoying.

So what if I actually like doing laundry? I think it helps that our washer and dryer is in our closet in our bedroom. Still, kind of weird that I enjoy that chore.

Go time!!!!!!!!!

Hi there blog lovies! (all 12 of you :))

I'm starting Jillian Michaels 30 day shred. Tomorrow morning. I figure why not start on a random Wednesday morning? 4:15 is going to come waaaaaaay too early. BUT I know myself and I absolutely will not do it at night. After Halle goes to bed I usually catch up on my shows that are on the DVR from the night before.
Also, at 4:15 no one is awake to watch me make a fool of myself :)

I'm not brave enough to take a bare-it-all picture and post on here, but I will share my measurements.
*note, these may need updated as it did it as close as I could WITH my clothes still on so I'm going to do it again later in my skevvies*

-Right Thigh (also known as my roast beefs) : 23 1/2"
-Right Arm (that jiggles more than a bowl of jello) : 12 1/4"
-Waist @ my belly button (and no more sucking it in!) : 36"
-Hips around the largest part of my butt (baby got back, anyone?) : 41 1/4"

Weight, eh not real sure. I don't own a scale. I may go to the gym here at work sometime this week and steal a step on their super fancy scale.  What I DO know is that when I had my health assesment done at work on February 4th I weighed 157. I'm guessing that's still about the same.

Someone else here at work said that they would do the shred along with me. The punishment to help keep accountability is to change your Facebook profile picture to your "before" picture in your shorts and bra. It only has to be your profile picture for one hour on the day that you don't work out.

There we have it. I'll revisit this again in 30 days obviously. Now, tomorrow when I can't even get out of my chair at work, bear with me while I complain through my So what! Wednesday :)

Now excuse me while I go hide in embarassment because i've exposed myself all over this blog :)

SSMT Verse 5!

Week 5 already! Wow!!! I have SO enjoyed this!

"So then do not worry about tomorrow, for tomorrow will worry about itself.

Today  has enough trouble of its own." Matthew 6:34 NLT