Wow, I haven't posted in too long!!! Mostly because my computer at home is JUNK and takes literally an hour to post a blog because it is so slow. I need a new one. Yes, need! Not high on my priority list these days though :)
I'm now back to work after having 12 weeks off. Man, that 4:45 alarm is rough! Especially when Halle wakes up to eat at 4...which leaves about 20 min before my alarm. I am missing her terribly while I am at work :( While it is nice to eat my lunch uninterrupted and have adult conversations all day, I still miss the dickins out of her! I swear this morning she looked at me when I put her in her carseat as if to say "Mom, what the heck are we doing, please stay home with me!" OK, probably not. But she looked sad to have to leave me. OK she probably wasn't sad, but I sure was! I've been calling once a day to check on her. The sitter says she is a happy girl when she isn't napping :) She smiles at all the kids and is eating like a champ! I love that she is is good hands, but I feel like someone else is raising my daughter. I need to stop thinking this way, but it's hard not to when she spends SO MUCH time away from me. I found myself thinking of what I could sell to be able to afford to stay at home. I had to snap out of that, I was thinking like a crazy person!
A girl on my rideshare van (who had her second baby in October) said that she had to start telling herself that when she is at work that is "mommy time". She said that has helped. I just need to learn to change my way of thinking. *sigh* It will get easier with time :)
