Friday, December 6, 2013

Dear Halle on your (almost) second birthday!

Dear Halle,

It is ALMOST your second birthday! We can't believe it. I feel like we were just bringing you home from the hospital, literally. In fact, maybe that's why you woke up a million times last night? You wanted to remind us what it was like to wake up with you all.night.long. No worries, we still love you!

Here is what I know about you:

-You love Mickey and Minnie. You lost your mind when we took you to Disney on Ice last week. Seeing Mickey skate out in front of you was so exciting for you!

-Aunt Julie is still your BFF. I don't see this changing anytime soon.
-You demand milk and cheese as soon as we walk in the door from daycare. (maaalllk!!!! cheeeeeeeese!)
-You won't sleep without your baby doll, Greta.
-Building with blocks will keep you busy for at least an hour.
-You wear a size 2t (with the waist ALL the way cinched in) and size 5 diapers
-Whenever you see stupid puss you instantly say "no no, kitty!"
-Dogs scare the daylights out of you
-Whenever daddy farts you always say "POOP?!" as if it is question on whether or not daddy did in fact crap himself. (No worries, I sometimes wonder the same thing when he does it
-You hardly eat anything. Ever. But you are still growing so I guess you are doing ok
-When mommy lays her head on your lap at night while you are drinking your milk and watching toons, you always run your fingers through my hair. I love every second of it.




Your daddy and I are crazy about you! Hopefully by your third birthday you will have a baby brother or sister ;)

Love,
Mama

Monday, November 4, 2013

30 days of thankful.

I thought I'd just do a blog post with everything I am thankful for this week.

1. I am beyond thankful for my growing relationship with God. I am thankful for an amazing church that has truly changed my life!

2. I am thankful for being a parent. I am so glad that God chose ME to be Halle's mom. She is the best thing that I have ever done in my life. No one can make me laugh or cry quite like she can. Being a parent is the hardest, and best job I'll ever have. I am so thankful everyday for her.

3. Matt. He drives me crazy, and I really want to cut his giant beard off of his face - but he works his butt off for his family. I don't know many people who work 50+ hours a week and don't even complain.

4. Safety. This morning was a rough ride into work. I don't usually mind driving  - but I saw 3 accidents this morning. I am so thankful that I was not one of them.

I love this little face.

Friday, October 18, 2013

dear halle

Dear Halle -

I can't wrap my head around the fact that you will be two soon! You are quite the character these days and I love it! Let's talk about what is going on with you lately....

You hate your halloween costume. It is a simple lady bug, and you are terrified of it. Thank goodness your cousin Hannah is crafty, she is going to make you a tu-tu. I am dressing you in halloween colors and calling it a day.

You still LOVE watching Toy Story. If I turn on the tv and don't put on Woody you will bring me the remote and yell "WOOOEEEY!" (Woody).

Your Aunt Julie is still your best friend. I don't forsee this ever changing. You start yelling "JU!" the minute we turn down her street. We are still working on getting you to say "Roq" for aunt Roquel, but you haven't spit that out yet :)

Whenever we ask you a question the default answer is a very enthusiastic "no!" Which usually means yes. When you say no and really mean it, we know!

You have really turned up the notch with the tantrum throwing lately. We still love you, don't worry.

Talk of a baby brother/sister is on the horizon, so please don't hate us when another little person graces us with his/her presence.

We love you, Halle!

Monday, July 1, 2013

Dear Halle

Dear Halle,

You are quickly approaching 19 months!!! And my how your attitude is changing :) You are quite the sassy pants! Most of the time it is funny. Most of the time.
This morning you got so mad at me because I was putting your hair in a pony tail. But, it was 6:15 and daddy had just got you woke up for the day, so I don't blame you. The pouty lip is priceless.


I just discovered that you don't like honey nut cheerios. I've only been trying to feed them to you for breakfast for about a month. Whoops!

We took you to the campground this weekend to hang out with Grandpa Bruce and you loved it. He gave you some random things from the camper to play with. Your favorite? A bungee cord. You wouldn't put it down! You carried it around your shoulder all afternoon. Grandpa insisted that you take it home with you, so you held onto it in your carseat the whole way home.

You also love to carry mama's wallet. You are quite the diva carrying around a Coach wallet while we shop at Hy-Vee.

I should also note here that you HATE wearing sandals. Particularly jelly sandals. Not sure what they ever did to you, but you strongly dislike them. When I try to put them on your feet you start crying and yelling "nooooo!!!!". No worries, I gave them away to your friend Bristol. I know she will appreciate them more than you did :)

I finally got you to keep your sunglasses on for more than 2.3 seconds.
We love you, little girl!

Thursday, June 20, 2013

Linkup with Holly!

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So the details:  June 13th. Alumni weekend in good ole Newton, IA!
Location-- Our old church and then reception at the Ikes. Complete with various animal heads on the wall :)
Bridal Party-- My sister, sister in law, and niece. Matt had his brother, friend, and my nephew. It was perfect!
Colors-- Black and hot pink. 

Honeymoon--What honeymoon? We were so broke! what has changed? I was in school full time and waiting tables. We could barely afford our 500 sq. foot apt :)
What Would I Change?-- The fact that I didn't junk punch my mother in law for showing up with her own photographer and COMPLETELY insulting my photographer in the process.
Just kidding, I wouldn't junk punch. or would I????
I would have made it much more low key and stood my ground on how many guests I wanted to invite. (which would have been way less than we actually had) Oh well, it was a great day!

Wednesday, June 12, 2013

So What!

HI FRIENDS!!!!  Today I'm saying So What!



So what if I just discovered the awesomeness of mangos (mangoes?). I bought a bag of frozen ones at Hy-Vee and they are delish!

So what if I was slightly annoyed that they don't thaw out in 30 minutes like the package says? Oh well, still good.

So what if I think my daughter is funnier than anyone I know. Baby girl can make me belly laugh like no one else. or maybe we just have the same sense of humor.....

So what if I paid and extra $3.99 to have my hair dryer delivered to my house by tomorrow (order placed this morning) when I was already getting free 2 day shipping. Side note, a free trial of Amazon Prime for 30 days is AWESOME!

So what if I am anxious about a job I interviewed for yesterday? It isn't looking promising that I will be able to work from 8-4:30. Darn it.

So what If I care more about where Halle spends her day than where I spend mine? Meaning our daycare is more important to me than working in a different department. #mamaproblems.

So what if I want to do a whole post about "a day in the life of a claims adjuster" but won't because I fear it will be exposed to all the wrong people :)

So what if I struggle with just being content?

So what if I spend entirely too much money on coffee? I should really quit that habit!

Tuesday, June 11, 2013

Dear Halle

I can't believe you are now 18 months old! It seems like I should still be rocking you to sleep and praying to the sleep gods that you would sleep for more than an hour :)
You are such a sweet girl! You have started giving us the cheesiest grin and it is so darn adorable.
You still prefer your daddy 10 to 1 over me. No worries, I still love you!
Last night you were being so darn naughty and when I got mad at you, you stuck your pouty lip out and raised your arms up so I would pick you up. When I did, you laid your head on my shoulder as if it was your way of telling me that you were sorry. Too cute.
We take you on a ride in your wagon just about every night and you love every minute of it!
You still don't eat very well, it's usually hit or miss. You adore raspberries and cheese.
You are so shy when we are out in public and have mastered the stink eye (still not as good as your friend Luke Smead...he takes the cake for the best stink eye!) Your favorite people outside of mom and dad are Lacie and Aunt Julie.
Aunt Juile says that you are cursed to have your mothers stumpy feet, so I'm really sorry about that! You are still a peanut wearing 12 month shorts :)

We love you!

Monday, June 3, 2013

SSMT #11!

Week 11!!! Not sure if I blogged what my week 10 verse was so i'll leave that here too:

Week 10:

"If I have everything I have to the poor and even sacrificed by body, I could boast about it; but if I didn't love others, I would have gained nothing." 1 Cor. 13:3 NLT

Week 11:

"God blesses those who patiently endure testing & temptation. Afterward they will receive the crown of life that God has promised to those who love Him" James 1:12 NLT.

Thursday, May 23, 2013

"The Best Move You Can Make In Your Marriage"

Original source http://time-warp-wife.blogspot.com/2013/05/the-best-move-you-can-make-in-your.html

He wasn't about to budge. That much was evident.

I could see it in his eyes. Could tell by his body language. My husband was in his Brick-Wall-Mode and he wasn't moving.

All I'd done was ask him to change - only change this one thing that bothered me greatly - and yet he was rather closed to the idea. Completely closed, in fact. I'm not even sure if he was listening.

What to do now?

That's what I was left wondering. Because I sure wanted him to do it differently.

I figured I had options. I might resort to crying, yelling, whining, pouting or maybe some serious nagging---although I'd have to admit I've never had much success with any of those approaches. Nor could I find any support for it in the Bible. No, I would have to come up with a better plan.

So with a big, heavy sigh, I began praying.

Not a stiff, formal prayer, but a pour-your-heart-out and a Lord-You-made-this-man-so-now-what? kind of prayer. I bet you know the kind I'm talking about.

And then I waited. Prayed some more. Waited and waited and waited.

Still nothing.

Then I did what came naturally - I gave up. And our life continued on as usual.

Until one day while I was chopping vegetables in the kitchen, he walked by me and dropped a simple remark. It went something like this, "You know that thing that was bugging you? Well, I've decided I'm not going to do it anymore." And that was that.

Can you believe it?? That beloved Brick Wall of Mine had moved after all.

I didn't say anything, but continued dicing the onions. With tears streaming down my cheeks. Silly onions - what they'll do to a woman.

God had changed what I could not.

He had heard my prayers and He'd been working all along. I just couldn't see it.

And that might be where you're at right now. In that waiting and praying and waiting place.  Maybe it's something really big, or maybe only a tiny matter. But either way, it's a blessing and a comfort to bring it all before The Lord and know that He's listening. He is always listening.

The Power of Prayer in Our Marriage

Sometimes God has the most marvelous ways of answering our prayers. I've witnessed some lovely miracles. Seen Him reverse many seemingly impossible situations.  He’s our loving Redeemer who cares for us. 

Sometimes He holds off His answer for a long time. Longer than we'd like. But don't give up (like I did - oh, me of little faith). Keep bringing your cares and concerns before The Lord.

Sometimes the work God wants to do is in US - and not the other person. More than once, it's turned out that I was the one who needed to change - much to my great surprise - when I was so certain that he was the one with the problem. So be willing, even desiring, for Him to do His work in you too. 

Be anxious for nothing, but in everything by prayer and supplication, with thanksgiving, let your requests be made known to God; and the peace of God, which surpasses all understanding, will guard your hearts and minds through Christ Jesus (Phil.4:6-7).
So the best move you can make in your marriage?

Pray.

Pray for him. Pray for you. Ask God to do His mighty work in your marriage. Thank Him for what He's already doing - where you can see it and even where you can't just yet.

Because if He can move mountains? Then he can move brick walls.

I know. I've watched Him move mine.

Even watched Him move me. 

Thank you, Lord.

He is doing a good work in us.
 
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I found this article today, and man did it really hit home. Just what I needed to read today.
Matt and I are at completely different places in our walk with Christ. I could say that I am making strides, while he is still standing on the sidelines. And that's ok, I guess. I can't force anything, nor do I want to. Let's all say a pray for my husband to at least take a step off the sidelines and be open to taking this journey with me....

Thursday, May 16, 2013

So What! If It's Thursday!

So What if I missed SWW yesterday?

So what if I am taking tomorrow off work? I had more vacation built up than I thought I did. Love it when that happens.

So what if my back-up person was annoyed that I am taking said day off?  Ain't nobody got time for that attitude!

So what if everyone at work this morning had their panties in a wad. All I could hear for the first 30 minutes was "THERE WAS 4 INCH HAIL IN TEXAS!!! ERRR MAAA GAWWWDDD!!!!!!!"
Side note:::: hail storms usually mean overtime for my department...so everyone gets a little touchy around storm season here.....

So what if our garage door broke (for the 103895th time) last night and I yelled at Matt for making such a ruckus while fixing it. I mean, it was 1015 PM and all I could hear was the gawd-awful noise of the darn door. Old woman needs her sleep!

So what if our neighbor said to Matt this morning "saw your lights were on later than usual last night!" They like to keep tabs on the neighborhood, and we are on their good side so I don't mind if they want to check things out.

So what if this neighbor also called us last week to tell us that one of the neighbor kids kept peeking in our windows. Reason #457 that a 7 foot privacy fence is going up.

So what if I gave up my beloved good shampoo? and when Nicole reads this I would just ask that she just please have some grace on me :) Mama needed to save a few pennies!

So what if I'm having a hard time with forgiveness lately? It's really hard when someone continually puts you down everytime you let them in.

Wednesday, May 15, 2013

Siesta Scripture Memory Team *VERSE 10!*

I can't believe we are in week 10 already!!!! I am so glad I decided to do this.

My week 10 verse:

"If I gave everything I have to the poor and even sacrificed my body, I could boast about it; but if I didn't love others, I would have gained nothing" 1Corinthians 13:3 NLT

Happy Wednesday, friends!

Monday, May 13, 2013

Please have some grace on me if there are 100 typos in this....I'm on the ole iPad again and she likes to auto correct me :)

This weekend was absolutely perfect, best Mother's Day! Matt and Halle got me a gift certificate for a massage. My first one ever! I plan on using it ASAP. We got to spend time together, time with family, church, and I got a 3 hour nap. Thank you, Halle, for taking a long Sunday nap.

Lately I couldn't really give a crap less about other people's drama. As usual, I don't want to get into specifics in here...but some people are absolutely Ridiculous when it comes to the drama.
I feel like when people set unrealistic expectations of what you should or shouldn't do, it's always a no win situation. Everyone is responsible for their own happiness at the start of everyday. Choose happiness! Life is too short to fight with people.
If you are continually mad at the world, people will distance themselves from you...and someday you will look around and no one will be left. Unfortunate but true.
I have recently just had to take a step back and set boundaries with someone, and to be honest I am a lot happier. I can't continually let someone in me life that brings me down and causes me unhappiness . Again, I choose happiness.

I guess there wasn't much of a point to this post...just some lunch time thoughts while I people watch at Starbucks :)

Wednesday, May 8, 2013

Dear Halle

Dear Halle,

17 months old, already! I say this a lot, but I don't ever want to forget this time with you! You are the funniest person I know. Seriously. Some of the stuff you do makes me laugh so hard!
You are starting to be so naughty and daddy And I don't know what to do with you :) you think it's hilarious to grab things you shouldn't have and sprint in the other direction. All with a big giggly laugh. It's hard to punish you.
You have started to allow me to put your hair in a piggy tail and its adorable. I even snuck in a bow with it and you didn't even fuss. This makes mama happy.
You still refuse to eat on occasion....but hey it's a woman's prerogative :)
Sometimes you cry when I pick you up from lacies house. This warms my heart.
You also love your aunt Julie to pieces. We pull in her driveway And you say "ju!" So cute! Although truth be told, you are daddy's girl ALWAYS! You love to just sit on his lap when he gets home from work. He is by far your favorite person in the world. When we decide to give you a sibling please don't be mad, mama needs to have someone to cuddle too :) no worries, it will be quite a while before that happens.  We are still enjoying our time with just you.


Love,
Mommy

SWW

I don't have the cool logo for this edition of SWW.....

So what if I'm sitting at Starbucks tapping out this edition of SWW on the ole iPad? I forget how relaxing it is to sit here over lunch and people watch. (I sound like my grandma b:))

So what if I am on the edge of just up and quitting my job? I can't, but I'd like to.
Although, I feel like good things are coming for me. "When God closes a door, continue to worship Him in the hallway." While one career door just didn't work out how I'd hoped, I think good things are on the horizon.

So what if I just laughed out loud at what started playing in my headphones? iTunes on shuffle is quite entertaining! "Welcome to Atlanta where players play and parties don't stop til 8 in the morning," old school rap from when I used to be cool :)

So what if I made dinner and threw it in the trash? It was gross.

So what if I just now am starting to figure out what's really important to me? I'm not going to elaborate...that could be a new post all on its own.

So what if I've considered taking Halle to the doc for what seems to be a head cold? It's been 3 weeks . How much snot can one kid produce?! For the record, we aren't going to see dr j, but my crazy pants considered it.

So what if I am beyond excited for our fence?! You know you are a grown up when....





Friday, April 12, 2013

Dear Halle

Life with you lately has been so much fun! I don't ever want to forget this time with you. A few nights ago you said "MOM" with as much clarity as I've ever heard you use! Granted, you were ticked that I was taking too long getting you some milk, but i'll take what I can get.
You think stupid puss Mya is so funny. You want nothing more than to lay on her and stroke her fur. Obviously this only lasts less than a minute as she isn't very patient with you. Don't take that personally.
You think you are SO funny! Clearly that comes from your mama. The other day you were digging in the drawer you know you aren't supposed to be in. You pulled out a pad of paper and when I came after you, you ran in the other direction giggling the whole way. I couldn't help but laugh.
Your favorite "game" is to have daddy or I chase you in the hallway. We have done this so much that now you just think it's funny when I am carrying you upstairs and daddy is just walking behind us.
You LOVE your wagon! We have been on a few walks in it and you can't take the grin off your face the whole time.
When I take you to daycare in the morning you jump out of my arms to Lacie. You have also been known to throw a fit when I pick you up because you don't want to leave. This warms my heart that you love where you spend your days :)

Love,

Mom

Wednesday, April 10, 2013

SWW

So what if I have an interview in less than 2 hours and am literally about to crap my pants due to this anxiety.

So what if I woke up feeling funny and have a borderline migraine. Must be the weather my sister said because she feels the same. I'm going to add to the list of things you shouldn't do with a migrane: #1 on my list is giving an interview. I'm guessing that #1 on my sister's list is trying to prepare Easter dinner.

So what if i'm debating about adding the insurance back to my cell phone plan because I dropped my phone last night and completely messed up the screen. This may be insurance fraud. This is what I get for trying to save myself $5.95 a month on my cell phone bill and dropping the insurance a few months ago.

So what if this is all i've got today. My mind is full of interview questions and thinking about how i'll answer them.......

Wednesday, April 3, 2013

sww



So what if Halle's dentist appointment was cancelled at last minute but I still left early yesterday? I had already made up my time off so....SO WHAT!

So what if I applied for a new job - same place - and have been stalking the hiring manager's calendar?! I want to know if/when he has interviews scheduled :)

So what if I sort of wish my cat would run away...she is starting to be really mean. Yes, more so than what is usual for her.

So what if I feel like I'm constantly being told (in one way or another) that I can't be a Christian because I 100% believe that gay people should be allowed to get married. It's really been weighing on my heart a lot lately. People have that you either believe the Bible or you don't and you can't call yourself a christian unless you believe it to be true. (I'm paraphrasing here). It hurts my feelings and I am starting to feel like a fake because I don't believe the popular majority of others who live for Jesus. I feel like I can't be part of the "club" of christians because I disagree whole heartedly with the popular opinion.

So what if that is maybe a little too deep for a SWW. But it was weighing on my heart. So what if that's the first time i've publicly declared my opinion on that issue.


signing off.

Tuesday, March 26, 2013

That stings.

I had an interesting conversation last night. Without going into major details I feel like I need to get my feelings out. Pretty certain that all of my blog "readers" will know who this is about.

Apparently I am a bad mom who can't handle my child. And my husband is the one who has to do everything because I just can't handle it. Therefore, I shouldn't be allowed to babysit, ever.
This little ditty here wasn't even meant for me to have heard, but It slipped out in coversation that someone said this about me.

Most things I can just let roll in one ear and out the other. This one cuts a little deep. I went to sleep thinking about it and woke up thinking about it. I am certain there is no truth to this. Seriously, who says something like this? Hurt people, that's who. My dear sister always says that hurt people, hurt people. So much truth to this.  This is reason #1 why I have set boundaries with this person - because this person constantly puts me in a state of anxiety and hurt feelings. I have made a conscience effort to be nice and put things in the past but it seems as though i'm still being bashed behind my back when I have done nothing wrong. I am certain I have done nothing to deserve this trash talk.

"Oh Father give me strength to forgive them, because I feel like the one losing!" - Best song in the world.

Wednesday, March 20, 2013

SWW


Today I'm saying SO WHAT!



So what if I want to throw my can of green beans at the TV when I hear Jillian say "We're not straining our neck, the neck is not invited to this party this is all abs!!!!"

So what if I use a can of green beans as my weights for the 30DS. I'm halfway through, only 15 more days!

So what if I think my child is funnier than most adults I know. She had me laughing so hard the other night I almost wet myself. I realize how silly that sounds, but she seems to have the same sense of humor as her mother :) we both think our jokes are funnier than they really are.....



So what if I think it's annoying to listen about fantasy baseball, football, basketball, bad mintton ect. teams at work all day long? Just kidding, it's only fantasy baseball these days. Still annoying.

So what if I actually like doing laundry? I think it helps that our washer and dryer is in our closet in our bedroom. Still, kind of weird that I enjoy that chore.

Tuesday, March 5, 2013

Go time!!!!!!!!!

Hi there blog lovies! (all 12 of you :))



I'm starting Jillian Michaels 30 day shred. Tomorrow morning. I figure why not start on a random Wednesday morning? 4:15 is going to come waaaaaaay too early. BUT I know myself and I absolutely will not do it at night. After Halle goes to bed I usually catch up on my shows that are on the DVR from the night before.
Also, at 4:15 no one is awake to watch me make a fool of myself :)

I'm not brave enough to take a bare-it-all picture and post on here, but I will share my measurements.
*note, these may need updated as it did it as close as I could WITH my clothes still on so I'm going to do it again later in my skevvies*

-Right Thigh (also known as my roast beefs) : 23 1/2"
-Right Arm (that jiggles more than a bowl of jello) : 12 1/4"
-Waist @ my belly button (and no more sucking it in!) : 36"
-Hips around the largest part of my butt (baby got back, anyone?) : 41 1/4"

Weight, eh not real sure. I don't own a scale. I may go to the gym here at work sometime this week and steal a step on their super fancy scale.  What I DO know is that when I had my health assesment done at work on February 4th I weighed 157. I'm guessing that's still about the same.

Someone else here at work said that they would do the shred along with me. The punishment to help keep accountability is to change your Facebook profile picture to your "before" picture in your shorts and bra. It only has to be your profile picture for one hour on the day that you don't work out.

There we have it. I'll revisit this again in 30 days obviously. Now, tomorrow when I can't even get out of my chair at work, bear with me while I complain through my So what! Wednesday :)

Now excuse me while I go hide in embarassment because i've exposed myself all over this blog :)

Friday, March 1, 2013

SSMT Verse 5!

Week 5 already! Wow!!! I have SO enjoyed this!

"So then do not worry about tomorrow, for tomorrow will worry about itself.
Today  has enough trouble of its own." Matthew 6:34 NLT

Thursday, February 28, 2013

SO WHAT!....Thursday?

So what if I missed SWW because I skipped work due to snow yesterday. It was amazing. I even took a nap!

So what if I have tried to order a pair of jeans online THREE times this week but am having a hard time going through with it because they are expensive? #firstworldproblems

So what if I am counting down the hours days until I get my hair did? WHY do I always wait so long? Silly.

So what if I was really snarky when someone tried to make our money business their business. For the record, it's totally inappropriate to ask someone how much their tax return was.

So what if I ate my weight in carbs for lunch today. It was SO GOOD!

So what if I am bored out of my mind at work today. It's so slow and I don't even have a book to read :/

So what if I don't have much on my mind for this edition of so what....Thursday?

Wednesday, February 20, 2013

SWW!!!!!

HELLO! And welcome to Masterpiece Theater. I am your host, Vincent Twice, Vincent Twice.
...............so what if my mother is the only one that is going to laught at that......................

So what If I accidentally skipped a few weeks of this? Whoopsie.

So what if when I go to the bathroom at work I always tear off the first 5 sheets of toilet paper and throw it away before getting my own. You know the person before you had their hands all over the TP before you walked in. Ick.

So what if I am really looking forward to some more snow!? That means some time off work, score!
     and so what if I am going to go negative on my vacaion time because of it?

So what if I am AGAIN annoyed by someone's uncanny ability to tell the second I take off my bra and then show up at my door. I've put this in two other SWW posts..but it happened again. Can't a girl let her girls out without being interrupted!?

So what if I fed Halle spaghetti-o's for dinner twice this week. Why do I always feel guilty for feeding her "bad food"??? Sometimes I get to the point where i'll feed her whatever she wants just so she will eat. She usually throws everything on the floor.

So what if I went back to buying some baby food so Halle will eat veggies? She is obsessed with the Plum Organics pouches and will eat whatever comes out of it. Spinach, peas & pear mix? Jokes on you, Halle!

So what if I went to bed without brushing my teeth last night...and had so much guilt about it that I got up 30 minutes later to brush. It was one of those "Oh, shit, I've turned into my mother" moments.

So what if I iron Halle's clothes more than I should? I used to make fun of my sister for doing this with her boys stuff...and now I do it. Darn it!

So what if I contemplated spending every last cent of my bonus that is coming my way in March? Reality kicked in and I decided to pay off some debt instead. Darn it again!

So what if I realized this morning that I feel 100 times better when I eat healthy for 3 meals a day. I mean, DUH. People say this all the time...but for some reason when I was in the bathroom at work washing my hands this morning something just clicked.

So what if 2 of my so whats happened in the bathroom today? Hmm, that's odd.

Tuesday, February 5, 2013

Think about it Tuesday....

*** Just need to rant for a minute.....feel free to move on if you don't want to read :) *****


If you were in an accident and didn't have your child properly buckled in, how would you feel if something happened to them!?!

I have seen multiple pictures lately of people's kids in the car who were improperly buckled. If the child's straps aren't even on their shoulders or the clip is all the way at the bottom of the carseat, how safe are they? NOT safe at all!!!!!!!!! If you are rear ended, where do you think that child is going to go???
Obviously this is something that I feel strongly about and it sickens me when people post pictures of their kids "being cute" or whatever in their seats and they are barely even buckled in their seats properly.
I've received multiple stares and comments from people about what kind of coat I choose to put Halle in. Dressing her in a heavier fleece coat and using a blanket over her in her carseat is what we choose to do. Heavy coats do not allow a car seat to properly buckle. I would rather my daughter be safe in the car than be a little chilly on the 2 second walk from the car to the house. I would never forgive myself if we were in an accident and she flew out of her seat because of my negligence.



Thanks, and have a nice day :)

Thursday, January 31, 2013

SSMT Week 3!

Here is my Siesta Scripture  Memory Team verse I have chosen for week 3 - - -

"She is clothed with strength and dignity, and she laughs without fear of the future. When she speaks, her words are side, and she gives instructions with kindness"
Proverbs 31:25-26 NLT.

Wednesday, January 30, 2013

SO WHAAAAAT!!!

I don't have our cool logo because it is saved on my work computer :( which brings me to.....
So WHAT if I didn't go to work today?! I love a good snow day!

So what if I am tapping this out on my iPad and illegally using my phone as a wireless hot spot? Cut me off, Uscellular I dare ya!!!

So what if I just rocked Halle for a good 15 minutes before she went to bed? She was super grumpy and when I took her upstairs and rocked her she snuggled me. In the words of Taylor Swift... "Your little hands wrapped around my finer and its so quiet in the world tonight. Your little eyelids flutter cause your dreaming so I tuck you in and turn on your favorite night light. I'd give all I have honey if you could stay like that..."

So what if I really, really want to see Taylor Swift in concert at Wells Fargo in August?!

So what if I had a surprise guest show up last night and it hugely annoyed me :/ I swear this person has radar for when I take off my bra and sit down on the couch...

So what if I am addicted to trashy tv? The Bachelor, anyone?

So what if I am frustrated with my job? I can't seem to get where I want to go. I need a 4 year degree to go anywhere and the thought of taking on more student loans makes me sick to my stomach.

That's all for today!!! Until next week!

Monday, January 28, 2013

"I will wait, I will wait for you"

I walk into work today and the first thing waiting for me is an email from the human resources recruiter here at work saying that I haven't been chosen to even get a first interview for a job I applied for.
A job that would have basically been a lateral move for me - same pay, pretty much same scale of responsibilities. I applied because it would open more doors for me from where I am at. But apparently my "skills" don't match what they want. Interesting.

Icing on the cake, really. and I had a small, ugly cry at my desk before 7:30 this morning.

I should probably change my perspective about things, but I am feeling like life is kind of slapping us in the face lately. The list of 'things' keeps growing. Money is beyond tight and my patience are running thin.
I need to remember that I'm not in control of this life, God is. I'm trying to control everything and I really shouldn't. I'm ready to see the silver lining.

Today is going to be so busy at work...my phone is already ringing off the hook and there are 4 people gone. On a team of only 13, that's a big hit. It's Monday and the work is piling in. Time to pull it together.

Wednesday, January 16, 2013

Pipe down.....

I follow Kristen's blog at First Name Smith. She is funny! Always posting stuff that others would never say. She is also the person that I have ordered invitations from for Halle's birthday party and for a baby shower that i'm hosting!
I read her post this morning titled "Pipe The Fuck Down".

Let me preface this by saying that the Carson family is on the fence about having another child - but leaning toward having two.

Here is a direct quote from her blog entry:
"What I chose to do with my own uterus and my husbands nuts are none of anyone's business. And to be so narrow minded to assume that my child is going to "suffer" because he doesn't have a 24/7 playmate?  Or suggest that he's going to be a selfish little prick because he has our undivided attention? You think I don't know how to discipline? How about you come over at 2, 3, 4, 5 am for 2 1/2 years straight? And then pay for my daycare at $190 a week. And then work full time and have incredible mom guilt for not being the one to teach my son how to count to 20. And only have 3 hours a day during the work week to get in quality time. And then divide that in half for a second child and then in thirds for a 3rd child. "
 
That last part about mom guilt really struck me. So glad that other people get it too! Staying home isn't an option for me and having a second child isn't an option right now either. I have heard countless times "you will NEVER have enough money for two!!!!" Right. But there is also a fine line between not "having" enough money and not being able to make the mortgage payment. While I don't owe an explaination to anyone, let me just say that it's tough to run on $1.67 between paychecks (some weeks) now that the government is taking more money out for taxes each month.
 
Don't get me wrong, this isn't a pity party of one here this morning.......her blog simply struck a note with me and I wanted to share. I don't mind having the second child talk with my family and close friends, but when people that I'm not close with want to try and tell me how to run my family I get annoyed.
 
Stay tuned for SO WHAT WEDNESDAY!!!!!!!!!!

Tuesday, January 15, 2013

2013 Siesta Scripture Memory Verse:::WEEK 2!

Week 2! I am so glad that I decided to do Beth Moore's Memory Verse. I've already got more out of it than I ever could have imagined.

This week I picked a scripture out of the book of James. This is hands down my favorite book in the Bible. When I did a study on James last spring I repeatedly said that I felt like James was slapping me in the face day after day. While I was going through a rough time with some family, the James study really spoke to me.
Here is my verse for week 2:
"But don't just listen to God's word. You must do what it says. Otherwise, you are only fooling yourselves." James 1:22

I would probably give my left foot to be able to go to Dallas in January to go to the Siesta Scripture Memory Team Celebration. We'll see if that works out.

Wednesday, January 9, 2013

So What! ...because only the cool people post on Wednesday!

So what if I was slightly annoyed when we had some unexpected company last night. I'll leave the name blank so not to offend anyone. After dinner and bath time I said to Matt "Is ------ going to spontaneously stop over tonight?" His response "Um...no!?" So I proceed to take off my bra and plop on the couch to read a book to Halle. Not even 2 minutes later the doorbell rings.............

So what if I get insanely annoyed by my someone at work who talks about his calorie intake every.single.day to anyone who will listen. And who talks about how much more weight his wife can squat than him. I wouldn't admit that if I was a man.

Which brings me to my next topic.....

So what if I want to drop 30 pounds. Yes, 30. I don't even know what I weigh right now because I'm literally scared to death to step on the scale. Pretty sure I am in the upper 160's. I can't believe I am admitting that. While I am not about the tell the world about my new endeavor, I am going to post it here. I need *SOME* sort of accountability. I have absolutely no intention of telling the Facebook world about all of my workouts or posting pictures of what I'm eating. I find that really annoying. Ok, rant on that is over :)

So what if I got to work and thought "MAN, who's perfume is so flipping strong today!?!?" only to realize that it is myself. Whoopsie. It's almost making me nauseous.

Wednesday, January 2, 2013

SWW

So what if I forgot to eat dinner last night? I have no idea how that happened because mama loves her food! but when I went to bed my stomach growled. Then I realized that I never ate. Must have been my subconscience telling me that I could stand to miss a few meals after the holiday binge.

So what if while I'm typing this I am on hold with the Houston Police department. Only going on 13 minutes of hold time. #lovemyjob.

So what if I am crazy and decided to throw not only a shower, but a suprise one at that for my sister in law.

So what if my husband ralphed last night and I freaked the freak out? I don't have time to be calling in sick to work! He woke up fine this morning :)

So what if I'm too busy to finish this post?

Siesta Scripture Memory Team 2013.

I can't wait to start Beth Moore's SSMT 2013!! I did a copy/paste of the instructions from her blog so I could refer back to it as needed.

1. On the 1st and 15th of every month of 2013, you will find a post by 8:00 in the morning where I will ask for your memory verse and give you mine. This will begin New Year’s Day 2013. You are committing to 24 Scriptures in 12 months. In previous years, I’ve found this to be a very doable pace. If you do much more, you’ll tend to fall behind and not retain. If you do much less, the impact is negligible. You really can do this. So many of you will surprise yourselves with what you’re capable of doing in the power of the Spirit. Yes, it takes work but it’s tremendously fulfilling and the results are nearly immeasurable. Look at it this way: you’re going to be meditating on something: unforgiveness, toxic memories, misery, lust, greed, dissatisfaction, jealousy, competition. Choose Scripture! Christ Himself said as a man thinks, so is he. He also said His words are spirit and life. This is work worth doing, Sweet Thing. Never – NOT ONCE – have I ever known anyone to get to the end of a Scripture memory commitment and say that it didn’t make any real difference. Not a single time.
2.You are to enter the verse you’ve chosen to memorize for that two-week period within twenty-four hours of the post going up. I’ve been asked many times if it’s okay if you’re late supplying your verse and, yes, of course it is, but try to avoid doing it often. The people who make it to the very end of the year are overwhelmingly those who stay up with it month to month. Please know up front that one of the important parts of this process is the exercise of self discipline. This culture is mass producing wimpy narcissists. Year-long commitments like these that require punctuality and focused energy push back on that degenerating trend. All that to say, please don’t drop out if you get behind. I just want you to know that this will be much more successful if you treat it as a real, live commitment you are willing to work hard to keep.
3. When you clock in with your verse those two times a month, keep your comments limited to your name, city, verse and translation. Long comments on SSMT days are no-no’s. It won’t take you long to figure out why we maintain that rule. Wait till you see the powerful sight of hundreds if not thousands of verses flowing down the comment stream. It is a gorgeous sight. When you’re having a bad day, all you have to do is scroll down a few hundred of your sisters’ Scripture selections and I promise you, you’ll get a word. It’s a very powerful thing. Here is a sample comment:
Beth from Houston, Texas: “But the Lord is faithful. He will establish you and guard you against the evil one.” 2 Thessalonians 3:3 ESV
Always add your translation because so many of your sisters will want to know where you found the wording for your entry. One of the great impacts of this process is how much we reap from each other’s selections. Often you’ll see a sister say, “I’m doing the one so-and-so did last time!” (Yes, you can make a comment that brief. Those can be fun. Occasionally you’ll even see someone write, “For the sake of my marriage, I’ve chosen to memorize…” That’s okay, too, but try to keep it very succinct.)
4. THIS ONE IS KEY! As often as possible, choose a verse that means something to you in your present season or circumstance. This is the reason why we don’t all memorize the same Scripture. We’re not all going through the same things. The more you let God lead you to verses that direct you or edify your soul in your present circumstances, the more He will renew your mind toward your challenges. This is a huge part of 2 Corinthians 10:3-5 where we’re told to demolish strongholds and take our thoughts captive to Christ. If you don’t have a verse on your mind or you’re drawing a blank when the 1st or 15th rolls around, you are welcome to share mine. I will always include it in the post. You might also look at a few of the comments and see if one of theirs resonates with you. I say this next part with a grin: try to refrain from memorizing Scriptures that you think your spouse or your children need to learn. Memorize what you need to learn. That means do your best to avoid jotting your verse on a stick note and planting it on your bathroom mirror where your man can see it and repent of his sins. He probably won’t because he’s got your game. I bet you can guess how I know that.
5. I strongly recommend that you stick with only one verse to memorize each time. (This is just a recommendation and not a rule. You’re free to do whatever works for you.) Keep it simple and meaningful. (If I were addressing you live, I’d have you repeat that sentence back to me so just go ahead and say it out loud in order to nail it down. That sentence could be your best friend through this process.) If you do too many verses or get too complicated, you will soon be overwhelmed and want to drop out. Better to do 24 simpler verses over a 12 month period of time than a chapter over the first month then quit. We want this to be a discipline we practice for the rest of our lives. Think marathon. Not sprint.
6. Either shortly before or after making your entry each 1st and 15th in the blog comment, write the verse by hand in your own spiral. (Again, that’s a recommendation and not a rule. I’ve discovered that there’s something about writing it with your own hand and picturing it later in your own handwriting that helps it sink into your memory bank. I’m not entirely sure why.) Take that spiral with you everywhere you go. Read it and read it and read it and read it. Do mental gymnastics with it. Flip that baby over and over. Many women have told me along the way that they’re not good at memorization and I truly understand that. I also beg to offer two responses: First, that may change. Give the Holy Spirit a chance to do something brand new with you. Second, even if you don’t get your verses down word for word, you are still meditating on them as you read and reread them. You still, thereby, accomplish one of the most important goals: captivating the mind to Christ. You just can’t lose on this one. Either way, it has a powerful effect.
OK, I think that’s enough to get us prepared for January 1st. Now, let me tell you well in advance how to qualify for our Siesta Scripture Memory Team Celebration on January 17-18, 2014 which is the biggest blast ever. I’m telling you about it now so that you can have it for a little extra incentive. Our main incentive is the will and good pleasure of God, of course, but He Himself authored great celebrations in His Name so feel free to be excited at the thought. Also, I want you to have plenty of time to start saving your money for your transportation and hotel. We do not charge for the event. Your entrance fee is your well-used spiral. By the way, we hope to have Travis back again to lead us in worship and Amanda, Melissa, my whole LPM staff and volunteer team will be there  to serve you.  Here’s how you qualify throughout the year:
*Clock in by first name and city at least 21 out of 24 times. (But please make your goal 24 out of 24!) Let me reiterate that you can be late with your entry on a 1st or 15th of any month but, by the end of the year, there has to be a record in the comment sections of you signing in at least 21 out of 24 times on a SSMT post. Make sense? Please give us 24 hours to post your comment before you assume it got lost. We still moderate all comments and the amount we get on SSMT days necessitates a slower pace. Thank you for your cooperation!
*Bring your spiral to the celebration. Again, that’s your ticket in.
*Be prepared to say any 12 of your 24 memory verses to another Siesta (of your choice) during the designated time at the celebration. (We get in pairs.) Some of you will be tempted to let this be a deal breaker but don’t back out! Siestas are really sweet and patient with each other and we are notorious for giving each other hints. We can even act out charades if necessary. If you’re one of those who genuinely struggles with memorization, just tell your memory buddy up front and she’ll give you all the grace you need.  Tell her the gist of the verse as accurately as you possibly can. She’ll be able to tell that you are well acquainted with it and that the goal was accomplished even if you can’t say the verse word-for-word.
*Register for the event when the time comes. (December 1, 2013)
Whew! Have I exhausted you?? I’ve worn myself to a pulp. Sorry this is so wordy! We just want to answer as many of your questions up front as possible.
I want to tell you something before I sign off. I may sound like a broken record but you have to let me say it again as we embark on this wild journey together. You have impacted my walk with Christ. This community has given me encouragement when I was nearly down for the count. I am more disciplined because you are here. You make a difference in my life. You make me think, and laugh, and study. You offer me company when I am lonely. You stir me up to love and good works. You are used of God in my life to make this hard world a better place.
That’s what Siestaville is for. Women walking alongside women on our way Home, stirring up excitement toward that great day. SSMT is just one way we do that. AND IT’S A WHOPPER. Let’s do it, Sisters, starting this coming January 1st! I’ll talk to you again about other things before then but I don’t want the New Year to take you by surprise.
Your blog mama loves you.



Verse 1: "Wherever your treasure is, there the desires of your heart will also be" Luke 12:34 NLT.

Now I need to start memorizing!!!!!!