SSMT Week 3!

Here is my Siesta Scripture  Memory Team verse I have chosen for week 3 - - -

"She is clothed with strength and dignity, and she laughs without fear of the future. When she speaks, her words are side, and she gives instructions with kindness"

Proverbs 31:25-26 NLT.

SO WHAAAAAT!!!

I don't have our cool logo because it is saved on my work computer :( which brings me to.....
So WHAT if I didn't go to work today?! I love a good snow day!

So what if I am tapping this out on my iPad and illegally using my phone as a wireless hot spot? Cut me off, Uscellular I dare ya!!!

So what if I just rocked Halle for a good 15 minutes before she went to bed? She was super grumpy and when I took her upstairs and rocked her she snuggled me. In the words of Taylor Swift... "Your little hands wrapped around my finer and its so quiet in the world tonight. Your little eyelids flutter cause your dreaming so I tuck you in and turn on your favorite night light. I'd give all I have honey if you could stay like that..."

So what if I really, really want to see Taylor Swift in concert at Wells Fargo in August?!

So what if I had a surprise guest show up last night and it hugely annoyed me :/ I swear this person has radar for when I take off my bra and sit down on the couch...

So what if I am addicted to trashy tv? The Bachelor, anyone?

So what if I am frustrated with my job? I can't seem to get where I want to go. I need a 4 year degree to go anywhere and the thought of taking on more student loans makes me sick to my stomach.

That's all for today!!! Until next week!

"I will wait, I will wait for you"

I walk into work today and the first thing waiting for me is an email from the human resources recruiter here at work saying that I haven't been chosen to even get a first interview for a job I applied for.
A job that would have basically been a lateral move for me - same pay, pretty much same scale of responsibilities. I applied because it would open more doors for me from where I am at. But apparently my "skills" don't match what they want. Interesting.

Icing on the cake, really. and I had a small, ugly cry at my desk before 7:30 this morning.

I should probably change my perspective about things, but I am feeling like life is kind of slapping us in the face lately. The list of 'things' keeps growing. Money is beyond tight and my patience are running thin.
I need to remember that I'm not in control of this life, God is. I'm trying to control everything and I really shouldn't. I'm ready to see the silver lining.

Today is going to be so busy at work...my phone is already ringing off the hook and there are 4 people gone. On a team of only 13, that's a big hit. It's Monday and the work is piling in. Time to pull it together.

Pipe down.....

I follow Kristen's blog at First Name Smith. She is funny! Always posting stuff that others would never say. She is also the person that I have ordered invitations from for Halle's birthday party and for a baby shower that i'm hosting!
I read her post this morning titled "Pipe The Fuck Down".

Let me preface this by saying that the Carson family is on the fence about having another child - but leaning toward having two.

Here is a direct quote from her blog entry:

"What I chose to do with my own uterus and my husbands nuts are none of anyone's business. And to be so narrow minded to assume that my child is going to "suffer" because he doesn't have a 24/7 playmate?  Or suggest that he's going to be a selfish little prick because he has our undivided attention? You think I don't know how to discipline? How about you come over at 2, 3, 4, 5 am for 2 1/2 years straight? And then pay for my daycare at $190 a week. And then work full time and have incredible mom guilt for not being the one to teach my son how to count to 20. And only have 3 hours a day during the work week to get in quality time. And then divide that in half for a second child and then in thirds for a 3rd child. "

 

That last part about mom guilt really struck me. So glad that other people get it too! Staying home isn't an option for me and having a second child isn't an option right now either. I have heard countless times "you will NEVER have enough money for two!!!!" Right. But there is also a fine line between not "having" enough money and not being able to make the mortgage payment. While I don't owe an explaination to anyone, let me just say that it's tough to run on $1.67 between paychecks (some weeks) now that the government is taking more money out for taxes each month.

 

Don't get me wrong, this isn't a pity party of one here this morning.......her blog simply struck a note with me and I wanted to share. I don't mind having the second child talk with my family and close friends, but when people that I'm not close with want to try and tell me how to run my family I get annoyed.

 

Stay tuned for SO WHAT WEDNESDAY!!!!!!!!!!

2013 Siesta Scripture Memory Verse:::WEEK 2!

Week 2! I am so glad that I decided to do Beth Moore's Memory Verse. I've already got more out of it than I ever could have imagined.

This week I picked a scripture out of the book of James. This is hands down my favorite book in the Bible. When I did a study on James last spring I repeatedly said that I felt like James was slapping me in the face day after day. While I was going through a rough time with some family, the James study really spoke to me.
Here is my verse for week 2:
"But don't just listen to God's word. You must do what it says. Otherwise, you are only fooling yourselves." James 1:22

I would probably give my left foot to be able to go to Dallas in January to go to the Siesta Scripture Memory Team Celebration. We'll see if that works out.

So What! ...because only the cool people post on Wednesday!

So what if I was slightly annoyed when we had some unexpected company last night. I'll leave the name blank so not to offend anyone. After dinner and bath time I said to Matt "Is ------ going to spontaneously stop over tonight?" His response "Um...no!?" So I proceed to take off my bra and plop on the couch to read a book to Halle. Not even 2 minutes later the doorbell rings.............

So what if I get insanely annoyed by my someone at work who talks about his calorie intake every.single.day to anyone who will listen. And who talks about how much more weight his wife can squat than him. I wouldn't admit that if I was a man.

Which brings me to my next topic.....

So what if I want to drop 30 pounds. Yes, 30. I don't even know what I weigh right now because I'm literally scared to death to step on the scale. Pretty sure I am in the upper 160's. I can't believe I am admitting that. While I am not about the tell the world about my new endeavor, I am going to post it here. I need *SOME* sort of accountability. I have absolutely no intention of telling the Facebook world about all of my workouts or posting pictures of what I'm eating. I find that really annoying. Ok, rant on that is over :)

So what if I got to work and thought "MAN, who's perfume is so flipping strong today!?!?" only to realize that it is myself. Whoopsie. It's almost making me nauseous.

SWW

So what if I forgot to eat dinner last night? I have no idea how that happened because mama loves her food! but when I went to bed my stomach growled. Then I realized that I never ate. Must have been my subconscience telling me that I could stand to miss a few meals after the holiday binge.

So what if while I'm typing this I am on hold with the Houston Police department. Only going on 13 minutes of hold time. #lovemyjob.

So what if I am crazy and decided to throw not only a shower, but a suprise one at that for my sister in law.

So what if my husband ralphed last night and I freaked the freak out? I don't have time to be calling in sick to work! He woke up fine this morning :)

So what if I'm too busy to finish this post?

Siesta Scripture Memory Team 2013.

I can't wait to start Beth Moore's SSMT 2013!! I did a copy/paste of the instructions from her blog so I could refer back to it as needed.

1. On the 1st and 15th of every month of 2013, you will find a post by 8:00 in the morning where I will ask for your memory verse and give you mine. This will begin New Year’s Day 2013. You are committing to 24 Scriptures in 12 months. In previous years, I’ve found this to be a very doable pace. If you do much more, you’ll tend to fall behind and not retain. If you do much less, the impact is negligible. You really can do this. So many of you will surprise yourselves with what you’re capable of doing in the power of the Spirit. Yes, it takes work but it’s tremendously fulfilling and the results are nearly immeasurable. Look at it this way: you’re going to be meditating on something: unforgiveness, toxic memories, misery, lust, greed, dissatisfaction, jealousy, competition. Choose Scripture! Christ Himself said as a man thinks, so is he. He also said His words are spirit and life. This is work worth doing, Sweet Thing. Never – NOT ONCE – have I ever known anyone to get to the end of a Scripture memory commitment and say that it didn’t make any real difference. Not a single time.
2.You are to enter the verse you’ve chosen to memorize for that two-week period within twenty-four hours of the post going up. I’ve been asked many times if it’s okay if you’re late supplying your verse and, yes, of course it is, but try to avoid doing it often. The people who make it to the very end of the year are overwhelmingly those who stay up with it month to month. Please know up front that one of the important parts of this process is the exercise of self discipline. This culture is mass producing wimpy narcissists. Year-long commitments like these that require punctuality and focused energy push back on that degenerating trend. All that to say, please don’t drop out if you get behind. I just want you to know that this will be much more successful if you treat it as a real, live commitment you are willing to work hard to keep.
3. When you clock in with your verse those two times a month, keep your comments limited to your name, city, verse and translation. Long comments on SSMT days are no-no’s. It won’t take you long to figure out why we maintain that rule. Wait till you see the powerful sight of hundreds if not thousands of verses flowing down the comment stream. It is a gorgeous sight. When you’re having a bad day, all you have to do is scroll down a few hundred of your sisters’ Scripture selections and I promise you, you’ll get a word. It’s a very powerful thing. Here is a sample comment:
Beth from Houston, Texas: “But the Lord is faithful. He will establish you and guard you against the evil one.” 2 Thessalonians 3:3 ESV
Always add your translation because so many of your sisters will want to know where you found the wording for your entry. One of the great impacts of this process is how much we reap from each other’s selections. Often you’ll see a sister say, “I’m doing the one so-and-so did last time!” (Yes, you can make a comment that brief. Those can be fun. Occasionally you’ll even see someone write, “For the sake of my marriage, I’ve chosen to memorize…” That’s okay, too, but try to keep it very succinct.)
4. THIS ONE IS KEY! As often as possible, choose a verse that means something to you in your present season or circumstance. This is the reason why we don’t all memorize the same Scripture. We’re not all going through the same things. The more you let God lead you to verses that direct you or edify your soul in your present circumstances, the more He will renew your mind toward your challenges. This is a huge part of 2 Corinthians 10:3-5 where we’re told to demolish strongholds and take our thoughts captive to Christ. If you don’t have a verse on your mind or you’re drawing a blank when the 1st or 15th rolls around, you are welcome to share mine. I will always include it in the post. You might also look at a few of the comments and see if one of theirs resonates with you. I say this next part with a grin: try to refrain from memorizing Scriptures that you think your spouse or your children need to learn. Memorize what you need to learn. That means do your best to avoid jotting your verse on a stick note and planting it on your bathroom mirror where your man can see it and repent of his sins. He probably won’t because he’s got your game. I bet you can guess how I know that.
5. I strongly recommend that you stick with only one verse to memorize each time. (This is just a recommendation and not a rule. You’re free to do whatever works for you.) Keep it simple and meaningful. (If I were addressing you live, I’d have you repeat that sentence back to me so just go ahead and say it out loud in order to nail it down. That sentence could be your best friend through this process.) If you do too many verses or get too complicated, you will soon be overwhelmed and want to drop out. Better to do 24 simpler verses over a 12 month period of time than a chapter over the first month then quit. We want this to be a discipline we practice for the rest of our lives. Think marathon. Not sprint.
6. Either shortly before or after making your entry each 1st and 15th in the blog comment, write the verse by hand in your own spiral. (Again, that’s a recommendation and not a rule. I’ve discovered that there’s something about writing it with your own hand and picturing it later in your own handwriting that helps it sink into your memory bank. I’m not entirely sure why.) Take that spiral with you everywhere you go. Read it and read it and read it and read it. Do mental gymnastics with it. Flip that baby over and over. Many women have told me along the way that they’re not good at memorization and I truly understand that. I also beg to offer two responses: First, that may change. Give the Holy Spirit a chance to do something brand new with you. Second, even if you don’t get your verses down word for word, you are still meditating on them as you read and reread them. You still, thereby, accomplish one of the most important goals: captivating the mind to Christ. You just can’t lose on this one. Either way, it has a powerful effect.
OK, I think that’s enough to get us prepared for January 1st. Now, let me tell you well in advance how to qualify for our Siesta Scripture Memory Team Celebration on January 17-18, 2014 which is the biggest blast ever. I’m telling you about it now so that you can have it for a little extra incentive. Our main incentive is the will and good pleasure of God, of course, but He Himself authored great celebrations in His Name so feel free to be excited at the thought. Also, I want you to have plenty of time to start saving your money for your transportation and hotel. We do not charge for the event. Your entrance fee is your well-used spiral. By the way, we hope to have Travis back again to lead us in worship and Amanda, Melissa, my whole LPM staff and volunteer team will be there  to serve you.  Here’s how you qualify throughout the year:
*Clock in by first name and city at least 21 out of 24 times. (But please make your goal 24 out of 24!) Let me reiterate that you can be late with your entry on a 1st or 15th of any month but, by the end of the year, there has to be a record in the comment sections of you signing in at least 21 out of 24 times on a SSMT post. Make sense? Please give us 24 hours to post your comment before you assume it got lost. We still moderate all comments and the amount we get on SSMT days necessitates a slower pace. Thank you for your cooperation!
*Bring your spiral to the celebration. Again, that’s your ticket in.
*Be prepared to say any 12 of your 24 memory verses to another Siesta (of your choice) during the designated time at the celebration. (We get in pairs.) Some of you will be tempted to let this be a deal breaker but don’t back out! Siestas are really sweet and patient with each other and we are notorious for giving each other hints. We can even act out charades if necessary. If you’re one of those who genuinely struggles with memorization, just tell your memory buddy up front and she’ll give you all the grace you need.  Tell her the gist of the verse as accurately as you possibly can. She’ll be able to tell that you are well acquainted with it and that the goal was accomplished even if you can’t say the verse word-for-word.
*Register for the event when the time comes. (December 1, 2013)
Whew! Have I exhausted you?? I’ve worn myself to a pulp. Sorry this is so wordy! We just want to answer as many of your questions up front as possible.
I want to tell you something before I sign off. I may sound like a broken record but you have to let me say it again as we embark on this wild journey together. You have impacted my walk with Christ. This community has given me encouragement when I was nearly down for the count. I am more disciplined because you are here. You make a difference in my life. You make me think, and laugh, and study. You offer me company when I am lonely. You stir me up to love and good works. You are used of God in my life to make this hard world a better place.
That’s what Siestaville is for. Women walking alongside women on our way Home, stirring up excitement toward that great day. SSMT is just one way we do that. AND IT’S A WHOPPER. Let’s do it, Sisters, starting this coming January 1st! I’ll talk to you again about other things before then but I don’t want the New Year to take you by surprise.
Your blog mama loves you.



Verse 1: "Wherever your treasure is, there the desires of your heart will also be" Luke 12:34 NLT.

Now I need to start memorizing!!!!!!